Saturday, February 17, 2007

A tough day

I may look steady and staid, calm, collected and unafraid,
But underneath I’m trying my hardest to believe in what I pray
It seems to me I need provision I can see,
But I know it’s been given, and so I should cease to be
Anxious and doubting, shaky, stop the pouting,
Release the tension that I’m bearing, let go of the burdens I’m carrying,
God knows how I’m faring, and I know that he’s caring
But sometimes I feel alone and darkness seems so scary
Uncertainty is daring me, and failure appears so glaring

But I’m told to hold fast, never give up,
I’ll be rewarded as time passes, passing my cup,
Strength in the unseen is so difficult at times
I guess that’s why I’ve been given to rhymes
And rhymes back to me, eliciting what strength He knows I need.

Friday, February 16, 2007

Refused, abused, reduced to refuse
confused, misused, bruised with blues
Clues fused, contrues news to use
a truce for what's true is due to lose
so loose the crews of sleuths to peruse
That facts flew proves, we are more than youths
deduce from views which hold and which ooze
don't get sued

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Never fall into the deceiful idea that God may want you to do evil so that good may result.

I'll explain this more thoroughly later. (EDIT: Just ask me offline if you want to know)


God bless,
DMS

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Don't get scared, it'll fade

Phase-shift my mind, turn exterior diamond-lined
Waiting to thrust my knuckles inches deep inside
Enemies emanating enmity, await my coming time
I'm letting loose frustration as it's bubbling high
Like a cellar never opened, secrets deeply stored
Like a hidden stone capturing a sacred sword
Like a piece of perfection to never be restored




My heart is sore.

Wanted to post...so sue me

Wisps of iced-air, I inhaled frozen thorns,
Icicles like sharpened spears, warfare's horn
Crinkled noses, angel poses, snowballs
thrown like rockets aimed, another boy maimed
To the victors go the spoils, hot chocolate
Later games with referees making calls,
Unlike our previous war, much more tame
I hawked it, as I thought it, my thought lit,
Bedtime now, enough play for this day's morn
Be careful, though my friends, you have been warned.


I'm sorry I posted this, my style is way too sad ;) The style is aa, bcd bcd, aa (slants), 10 syllable lines, and some other hidden secrets :)

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

I have no eloquence...

Where is the balance found between trying to hard and not trying hard enough? Where is the balance found in self-reliance and fatalism? Where is the balance found between relying on God knowing only He can provide and working as if you're the only one who cares?

Martha said, "don't you care...Lord"
The disciples said, "don't you care...Lord"

The quick and easy answer is, "Yeah I do, duh, haven't you heard anything I've said, haven't you seen all that I have done?"

The other - they way Jesus did answer - was harder because it takes more contemplation of how one sounds and the message they want to give...it was harder because it combined love and truth. He removed the focus on the obvious and brought the discussion to the real problems - and BECAUSE HE HAD NONE - the focus went to their problems and how they needed to change (for their own benefit mind you, he was blessing them in this).

How do we find the balance in our lives with understanding Jesus's intense love for us and the Father's desire to provide and the Spirit's desire to fellowship, and the other end of the spectrum which commands us to work and "provide" for our loved ones because no one else will. We're called to be hard-working and diligent, not lazy and overwhelmingly idealist. We need to see from God's perspective, viewing all things through both the lense of truth (not everything is perfect and nice and comfortable) and the lense of love (God will provide, there is a solution in Him, all things work for His glory...).

It's easy to fall back and ignore problems and say it's all going to workout for God's glory when tough situations come around, it's hard to combine that with a diligence to overcome and fightback by overlooking wrongs against you or confronting issues. Remember Jesus in the temple, when he saw the money-changers? Did he just say, "ohh look, these guys are sinning, well, the Father will fix this soon enough and so let them just slave to sin for now?" Of course not, he overturned their tables, effectively ruining their desire to sin. He decided He would fix the problem (as God and man). Stand up for what's right-eous, and be ye perfect even as your heavenly Father is perfect.

Also, know your stuff.....I mentioned this earlier when I wrote briefly about being "people of the Book." I'm in a couple Christian theology courses, and students are often asked difficult questions about their faith, and what's right, and so forth. In my class on The Theology of the English Poets, I'm getting tired of the professor (who is amazingly brilliant and a top-notch debater) dominating these Christian brothers and sisters of mine. He won't even call on me unless I've had my hand up for 10 min. We get along really well and everytime a question is asked my friends will stumble over their reason and attempted explanations that are full of words and no substance. No one is pulling our their Bibles and slaying his questions with some simple passages of Scripture. Today he was asking about what makes being a Catholic better than a Protestant, and finally it got to the question of "Is being Christian enough?" People were pausing and thinking and stuttering and inconclusive...He asked me what I thought and I started commenting on Revelation and how every church has problems and many churches have good solutions, but the disjointedness of the Body is the cause and that's why Christ calls for unity, because we wouldn't have near as many problems if we sought out the Truth like the Bereans did when Paul was preaching to them (Acts of the Apostles/Holy Spirit). Another comment I made was on being followers of Christ and not Apollos, Peter, etc... Basically, being a Christian is enough, but if you don't have a firm understanding of what being a Christian is, then it will never be enough. It's being one in the Body, it's being saved by faith in God's grace given through Jesus's death on the cross and resurrection to life after defeating death and acting as the Lamb which atoned for our sins and allowed God's wrath to Pass Over us, it's being continually producing good fruit and increasing in measure of faith, goodness, knowledge, self-control, perseverance, godliness, brotherly kindness, and Christian love, it's about seeking Christ always and yielding yourself to the Lord's will constantly, it's about reliance on the Father's provision, it's about girding yourself in the Truth of Jesus Christ (around the loins which, being most vunerable, are most suseptible to attack), it's about delighting in the Lord and resting in His rest...

and so much more...

I'll write more later...let me know if there are topics you want me to address or things I've left out...correct me, admonish me brothers and sisters

God bless,
DMS

Monday, February 12, 2007

Stomach-ache

This world is sick, and it's coughing on me, contagions flying free trying to infect me
Passing through the air, cause their prince is there, confusion is the essence of their purpose laid bare
Hit me with the problems, obstacles I can't climb, I can't move around them, I don't have the time,
I can't bust through them, I don't have the strength, I need to remove them but I just can't think of anyway that would work to get them out of my way, Self-reliance is a foe that I can't seem to slay
Lord move this mountain I begin to say, toss it in a lake whose thirst never dies
My heart is crying and rivers are flowing from my eyes
The flies around my past sins piled so high
How could I have tried to defy the Lord God on High?
Slaving for sin is a problem that wouldn't subside,
Now I'm on my knees as I know I'll be tried
Sorry Father God, I failed and deserve to die
I deserve to suffer forever and forever realize why
I transgressed against all goodness and so with Justice I collide
If it wasn't for your mercy, I would be sure to fry,
I would be assuredly crushed and eaten alive,
Gnashing teeth ripping flesh and yet it's not the worst way to abide,
The edeictic memory of knowing my mouth doesn't have to be dry
That I had always been able to choose the best gift in sight
What a choice to make, what a nightmare's fright
Instead of darkness I could have chosen light
Instead of suffering death I could have chosen life
Instead of eternal regret I could have chosen delight
And so days will go by, or rather eternal night,
Remembering the choice and how a disconnect shall be your plight.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

blah lyrics

My eyes hurt from reading so much.....my mind hurts from eating so much
My ears hurt from Silence's touch.......I have to quit before my brain can't clutch
The ideas which transfer from page to mind, the intelligence which craves what's there is mine
The lyrics of my day are days behind, half the time the words are wasted rhymes,
Half my lines are wasted time, wasted because I couldn't produce what's fine.
Production slows as I recoup and climb, back to the top on the wordsmith's block,
Back on the peak I reclaim my seat, but it's all behind a screen with a virtual flock.