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Spirit aching like it's my last breath I'm taking,
My body's shaking, every single bone is breaking.
Now forsaking, all the times I was faking,
Teaching to love the Lord, though just a fool in the making,
Now my own ashes I'm raking,
For the staking I gave his wrists and feet while He was waiting,
I was demonstrating how I was filled with hating,
Debating how to get the benefits and still continue berating,
And never commit myself to stating,
How I needed God to be devoted to creating,
I needed a shaping,
To remove the shell I wore I needed a scraping,
Only to uncover the hole inside was gaping,
My life was escaping.
As my mind was racing,
Screaming without a sound as the doctor was pacing,
My lungs started to give, what was I facing,
Death seemed inevitable, I began the bracing,
I saw a syringe, this must be the lacing,
Put me out quietly, I can almost taste it....

Flying up straight, mile a minute blood pump,
Unsure what happened, not ready to give up,
A newfound flame has taken over my name,
A vigor overcoming filling my life by the cup.

Who's Who

Two greatest statements I've recently read...perhaps in many years.



The problem with the church today is an appetite problem....when we can watch 2-3 hour movies, 3-4 hour sports events....do nothing for hours and hours....and yet at the same time find it impossible to spend over 1 1/2 hours at church, it's easy to see that our problem is how much we desire God over other things.


"There will come a day, Paul says, when all our "work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work" (1 Cor 3:13). The gold, silver, and precious stones will endure while the wood, hay, and straw will go up in smoke. Paul doesn't say that the quantity will be tested. He says nothing about attendance totals. Everything will focus on quality.

Men, Women, and Fire (A study in Hebrew by Frank Seekings)

I did a short study in Hebrew over break...and here's a cool fact about the ancient word pictures for the word man and woman...both words contain two of the same letters (and in the same order) which create the word "fire." Each word also contains a letter not contained within the counterpart. When these two letters are brought together in the order in which they appear in the words, they spell the sacred name of God...

One teaching that I studied went on to say that when man and woman are centered on God - that God is in the midst of the relationship (as God is in the midst of the words themselves) - the relationship is as God intended it...when it's absent of God, all that remains is a double-fire....and as the Hebrew language doubles words for emphasis and a superlative effect intending best or worst...it becomes obvious what occurs

I'll explain more if anyone is interested

What makes our culture so obsessed with the "new year."

If you think about it, is there ever an end to time until the end of time? Has there ever been a new beginning of time since the beginning of time?


More to come.

needed to write

Quiet the soul's speech, let the salve do it's work
Heard a little too much torment as the minutes lurk,
By, Why?
What's the deal that my hand's been dealt slick,
Good seems to evade me, like the whole games a trick,
And I'm sick,
Tired of never seeing change,
Angry that the pain is always mine to claim.

So much is wrong, and it's all we ever see,
Problems have such high visibility,
Good is supposed to be, and so we regard it lightly,
But we need to give thanks for what, by His grace has remained holy,

Prophetic, always finding problems,
Purify the Body and get rid of the nonsense.
Pouring out the coals, but instead of silver I'm only making more hotheads,
Speaking truth to others' hearts but only finding rock beds.

Empty

There was a whisper of a treasure of great renown.
Spirit inside you tickled with ambition was adventure bound,
Sold all that you had to the heartbeat's pound,
Searching for the satisfaction that your soul hasn't found.
Pull the blinds down.
Break the lock to discover what you unearthed from the ground.